Held on - What all I lose when I hang on to poisonous emotional trash

Held on

 

I have held on

to all the injuries

and wounds of the past.

 

It was my right

to be mad.

I was entitled to remain

hard-headed and stubborn.

 

The only thing I got rid of

was my aggression.

I shared it

with everyone.

 

I also hung onto

the feelings of guilt

about my own misconduct.

They were haunting me

and did not give me any peace.

 

I was constantly looking

for ulterior motives

when other people did anything good for me,

and interpreted so much

into their assumed motivation

that I could no longer

enjoy the goodness.

 

But I am slowly starting to realize

that I only make my life sour.

 

I have turned my time to hell

with the entire way I was thinking

and with everyone who could

avoid me

for their own protection.

 

For a long time, I did not notice

that I had locked myself out

from true love

and instead turned more and more

mistrusting.

 

I was not interested in finding out

what the idea of soul hygiene meant

and did not know what to do

with forgiveness.

 

Oh, what a poor wretch

I have turned into.

I can no longer enjoy life.

 

Maybe I should think about

leaving my past behind me

and searching for the positive

in each day.

Maybe the path of forgiveness

is the only successful one.

 

It does no good

to hold onto the

emotional poisonous trash

in my life.

 

Now I will start making

some more serious thoughts

about my own life,

and let go of this phase

of anger and grief

because all this time

I have held on to

the wrong thing!

 

 

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Proverbs 15:18 (The Israel Bible)

A hot-tempered man provokes a quarrel; A patient man calms strife.