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Information about the posts in March 2026

All posts posted in March 2026 have a specific order to them. I have placed them in 3 different categories: 1. The Problems 2. The Considerations 3. The Solutions Posts, that will be posted after March 2026 do not have this order, but will be posted randomly only sorted by the time they were posted. It is my hope, that the reader realizes, that he/she is not the only one struggling with a certain problem. I have spent much effort going into the depth of each problem with the hope that the reader can identify with it. Over time I have come to realize that the way we react to problems in principle is timeless. We all get stuck with the same or similar reactions. At the beginning those reactions are rather unproductive or even destructive.  It is my goal to not only honestly write about different problems, but also give the reader, who is seeking solutions good thoughts to consider. I do wish for each reader to read the lyrics with an open mind and contemplate what is wr...
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The second problem - PTSD (Post-traumatic stress disorder)

The second problem I have a problem, or so I thought for a long time. Something bothered me immensely. Whether it was: suffering, illness,  injustice, bullying, abuse, loss, or anything else that threw me off track, what's certain is that the pain of it was etched into my mind. I got incredibly upset about it, simmered with anger and resentment, shrouded myself in self-pity and depression, occupied myself with all sorts of distractions, and did all sorts of things to try and get rid of the pain. Soon I realized that the thought about my problem had become lodged inside me, like a bird that has built a nest  in my tree. I'm starting to brood over the negative feelings. Day and night, they give me no peace. I'm getting so worked up about this terrible situation that I'm constantly preoccupied with all sorts of possible and even impossible scenarios. Soon, I'm experiencing increasing difficulty concentrating. Coping with everyday tasks becomes more and m...
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Broken Spirit - Being forced to do something

Broken Spirit   Yes, you have my cooperation, but what you are asking me to do totally goes against my will.   Yes, I do as you please, but inside of me a volcano erupts.   Yes, I will follow you because I must but do not ask me to trust you because I do not.   For you everything may be fine you are probably completely ignorant of what just went wrong and the pain it caused me to have but for me a world breaks down.   My Spirit is broken and my love for you is gone.   The anger grows and every bit of respect that I had for you herby went down the drain.   I feel lost I feel misunderstood and I feel unloved and you don’t seem to have a clue as to how much you hurt me.   I do not know what you care about, but at that moment it was not me.   I so wish that one day you will really listen to me!       (1604122245-2257)     Levitic...
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When the soul cries out - Emotional pain

When the soul cries out   When the soul cries out then the head is full with pain. When the soul cries out then it is obvious that you cannot concentrate. When the soul cries out then the everyday routines become difficult. When the soul cries out then any contacts with the outside world become more and more difficult. When the soul cries out then you become more impatient with yourself and others. When the soul cries out then you need a lot of love and comfort  in order to heal again.     (1606121555-1912,1706120737-0747)     Psalm 147:3 (The Israel Bible) He heals their broken hearts, and binds up their wounds.  
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Broken - Brokenness is often a prerequisite to healing

Broken   At the end  of all my anger and my bitterness came the brokenness. The pain was so overpowering, that none of my methods of fighting were helpful anymore. My anger wore out my bitterness did not help. All that was left was utter pain and helplessness. My pride and stubbornness did not get me anywhere for so many years they held me captive. How much deeper  can a man fall, before he looks up at God? How much harder  can a heart get, before it totally shatters? I could not go on like that I was a total mess inside. It took a long time  of utter misery before I was willing  to even consider you. I have spent many years  rejecting you for I never saw  the opportunity in the hardship  that I had to experience. My life was characterized by anger and I had turned my back on you. By that I missed out  on your loving care, and on your healing. I never allowed you to touch my...
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When my thoughts are spinning - How I can free myself from my own thought swamp

When my thoughts are spinning   There are times during which my thoughts only spin around in a circle.   Bad thoughts, unwholesome “what is when“ scenarios, overblown “what if“ thinking.   The whole time I cannot think of anything good. And with every spinning thought I dig myself deeper and deeper into my own worries. Day in and day out I cannot be thinking of anything else but my worries and troubles.   My everyday life is almost paralyzed. I cannot find joy in anything. No distraction is of interest to me.   I want to be alone, sulking about my fate. But exactly that is a big mistake because that only causes me to be stuck more and more.   I cannot hinder bad thoughts from coming into my head, but I can fight them instead of brooding upon them.   If I cannot change a situation I must accept it. When all the fighting against it is not doing any good, then I have to pu...
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I follow my thoughts - How our thoughts shape our everyday lives

I follow my thoughts For a long time, I didn't realize that I follow my own thoughts at every turn. My thoughts are followed by my feelings. My feelings are followed by my words, and my words are followed by my actions. My whole life unfolds in this order. Everything begins with my thoughts. Isn't it all the more important, then, to think positive thoughts? I have to admit that this takes a lot of effort. If I just let myself go, or don't intentionally think about something good, in times of boredom or loneliness, negative thoughts dominate. Everything that follows is then shaped by them. But I don't want to live my life like that. So I have to make the effort to intentionally think about good and positive things. This is usually much more time-consuming than simply giving in to negativity. I realize the effort   is absolutely worth it. Suddenly, good ideas come to me again. I feel decidedly better and gain a new perspective on ...
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