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On board - When God is pushed to the side

On board

 

God

for safety reasons

I took you on board

but I sit at the steering wheel.


I rule in my life

I decide what is fun

I do what I want to.


You are allowed

to come along

as a passenger

but one thing is for sure:

I am the captain.


To go without you

all the way wouldn’t feel right

but to be lead by you

seems too dangerous to me.


I don’t want to

be directed by you

or live according your principles

and obey you.


Instead of that

I am driven by the spirit of the time

and the superficial

and meaningless things.


My free time is filled up

with one appointment

after the other

just so that there will not be

any quietness

because for me

quietness is emptiness.


I have never learned

to listen to your still and quiet voice

for there is always

so much action around me.


I have not really figured out

how to align the compass of my life

according to you

for your guidance for my life

seems to be to vague

I know that you made

me and the world

but I really do not

trust you with everything.


I’m not letting you

get very close to me.


I will only listen

to what you have to say

when it is something

I would like to hear

and you do what I want.


I still want to have

my own hardheaded ways

and believe that I know the best

how to direct this ship.


I still do not pay attention

to your healing advice.


No wonder

am I helplessly

subjected to every storm.


No wonder

do I just coast along

without a goal in mind.


No wonder

am I lacking the peace and joy

that only comes form you.


As long as I do not recognize you

either as map or as captain

in my life

am I aimlessly coasting

on the open sea

and slowly running

out of supplies.


If you are only

on board my boat

but I do not let you lead

I have missed

the most important.

 

 

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Proverbs 3:5–6 (The Israel Bible)

Trust in Hashem with all your heart, And do not rely on your own understanding.

6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths smooth.

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