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Soiled - Guilt

Soiled

 

My heart, what happened to you?

From the inside you look

dark and dirty.

 

Year in and year out

I have soiled you more and more.

 

All the dirty thoughts

that all too often

lead to dirty actions.

 

Nasty words,

hurts and mean statements

have left their marks on my heart.

 

Now my conscience is accusing me,

my heart screams loudly

for I have not kept it pure.

 

More and more I am lacking

the joy in life.

No distraction lasts long enough

to silence my screaming heart.

 

In order to hide my dirt

I have put on many masks

and have become quite the skilled actor.

 

But when I am honest with myself

I feel like crying

because my heart has become

hard like a stone.

 

Life has lost its beauty.

My joys do not last

and what remains

is emptiness and dirt.

 

Oh how much I would

like to have a fresh start

and change everything.

 

I totally underestimated

how important honesty is.

I never thought about

how much of a healing effect

good words have.


For a long time I did not care

how beneficial good thoughts are.

 

It was not important for me

that I should have worked

on all those points from the beginning.

 

Oh God, what did I make of myself?

What do YOU think of me now?

 

I cannot stand before YOU,

and depend upon YOUR mercy

and YOUR grace towards me.

I come to you

with the plea of forgiveness.

 

Cleanse me,

heal me,

lead me

and help me

to walk on new and right paths.

 

 

Theme:   Guilt

 


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Ezekiel 36:26-27 (The Israel Bible)

And I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit into you: I will remove the heart of stone from your body and give you a heart of flesh; 27 and I will put My spirit into you. Thus I will cause you to follow My laws and faithfully to observe My rules.

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