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Unfaithful - Where unfaithfulness towards God leads me

Unfaithful

 

I have been unfaithful toward you

and have not obeyed your guidelines.

 

I thought I knew better,

and rebelled against you

and went my own way.

 

Then I went about

walking the wrong way

and started to compromise

more and more.

But then I moved even further

away from you.

 

I noticed increasingly

that my heart got colder

and my dissatisfaction bigger.

 

Something was not right any longer.

The joy that I once knew

and the inner peace

that I once had

were lost.

 

Emptiness grew in me

and the feeling of being abandoned.

I knew something was not right.

 

No money in the world

and no pleasure

could bring back

the condition I was longing for

so badly.

 

I had pushed you to the side

and refused to believe in your existence.

 

But my conscience started to scream.

In lonely times it judged me guilty

and became more and more restless.


However I even put off this feeling

and made sure there was

no more silence in my life

where I could recognize

your still and quiet voice.

 

Instead of returning to you,

I turned my back to you

more and more.

But to be honest

I was not at all feeling good

by doing this.

 

But I only got

concerned about honesty

in the rare time when I took

an inventory of my life.

 

I have downright ignored

your offer of forgiveness

and total restoration of my soul

for many years.

 

I did not feel your love any longer.

Not because it was not there

but because I had distanced

myself from it.

 

But the time came

when I stood with my back

against the wall

with my life,

and I did not know what to do any more.

 

I had distanced myself

from you so far

that I had true feelings of guilt

and I was ashamed

to return to you.

 

However, by now

I was a broken man

who knew all too well

that I had made everything wrong

in my life

because I did not listen to you.

 

Only after I had reached

the end of myself

did I begin

to search for you again.

 

God forgive me,

that I have wasted so much time

and hurt so many people.

Let me discover you all anew.

I need you and your healing love.

 

 

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Jeremiah 2:13 (The Israel Bible)

For My people have done a twofold wrong: They have forsaken Me, the Fount of living waters, And hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, Which cannot even hold water.

 

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